Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Wanita Solehah

Wanita Solehah 

Ia mutiara terindah dunia
Bunga terharum sepanjang masa
Ada cahaya diwajahnya
Betapa indah pesonanya


Wanita solehah tidak dilihat pada kecantikan pakaiannya
Ia juga tidak dilihat pada keayuan alunan suaranya
kecantikan wanita solehah tidak dilihat pada luarannya
tetapi setebal mana imannya


Wanita solehah bukan dilihat pada sifat mesranya
tetapi usaha menjaga kehormatan dirinya
bukan juga dilihat dari sebanyak atau seberat mana ujiannya
tetapi sejauh mana  keredhaan dan kehambaan terhadap Tuhannya


Mampukah kita jadi muslimah sejati seperti ini?
Tidak ditelan arus duniawi
Wanita agung zaman dahulu yang patut dicontohi
Sabar, tabah, taat, bijak dan yakin pada Illahi


Setia seperti Siti Khadijah?
Bijak seperti Siti Aisyah?
Sabar seperti Siti Sarah?
Taat seperti Siti Fatimah ?


Solehah bukannya mudah
mustahil juga bukanlah
perbanyakkan dan jagalah ibadah
InsyaAllah dapatlah kita jadi wanita solehah


Wahai wanita,
Jagalah auratmu
Jagalah akhlakmu
Jagalah pandanganmu
Jagalah kehormatanmu



Sabda Rasulullah saw
Dunia ini adalah perhiasan,
dan sebaik-baik perhiasan 
adalah wanita solehah

copy and paste here and there. tambah skit ayat sendiri gitu. 
:)

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

10 wasiat Luqman Al-Hakim

Ingat lagi semasa tingkatan 4, beriya hafal beberapa ayat daripada surah Al-luqman ni. dah lah panjang. sebab takut ustazah pilih kita baca in front of the whole class kann. so kena lah hafal. tapi dulu sekadar hafazan je kann

10 wasiat Luqman Al Hakim kepada anak-anaknya. 

1.Jangan menyekutukan Allah
Menyektutukan Allah merupakan dosa paling besar yang tidak akan mendapat kampunan daripada Allah swt. Kita hendaklah meletakkan pergantungan hanya pada Allah swt.

2. Berbuat baik teradap ibu bapa
Pengorbanan ibu bapa terhadap anak-anak terlalu banyak, tak terkira nilainya. Jadi, sebagai anak, kita kena berusaha menjadi anak yang disenangi dan sentiasa mendoakan mereka. Jom berdoa *Wahai tuhanku ampunkanlah dosa ku dan dosa kedua ibu bapa ku dan kasihanilah mereka sebagaimana mereka mengasihaniku semasa kecil*

3. Sedar akan pengawasan Allah
Allah nampak setiap perkara yang berlaku walau sekecil atau sehalus mana sekalipun. Ingatlah bahawa setiap perbuatan akan didedahkan di akhirat kelak. Allah Maha Mengetahui.

4.Mendirikan solat
Setiap mukalaf wafjib mendirikan solat dengan sempurna yakni dengan khusyuk keraa ia dapat mencegah seseorang itu daripada kek buata melakukan kemungkaran.

5. Menyeru berbuat kebaikan
Tidak ada yang lebih mulia selain mengajak manusia kepada kebaikan. Jangan bertangguh untuk berbuat kebaikan!

6. Mencegah kemungkaran
Kita hendaklah berani mencegah kemungkaran. orang yang tidak mencegah kemungkaran merupakan orang yang tidak ada harga diri dan akan mendapat kutkan daripada Allah lantaran sikap mereka itu

7. SABAR MENGHADAPI UJIAN HIDUP
Kita wajib bersabar terhadap hal-hal yang menimpa kita. itu adalah tanda-tanda seseorag itu mempunyai keimanan yang kuat. Kunci kemenangan terhadap segala tentaga atau rintangan adalah sabar

8. Tidak berlagak sombong
Sifat sombong hanyak layak bagi Allah. Seseorang yang sombong akan hilang harga dirinya dan rendah martabatnya

9. Ingatlah bahwa manusia itu akan mati.
Kita hendaklah sentiasa menghisab diri dan beersegera bertaubat apabila melakukan dosa. sebab mati boleh datang bila-bila masa sahaja. "surely we belong to Allah, and to Him we shall return"

10. Rendahkanlah suaramu
Janganlah meninggikan suara, Jangan sampai ada orang rasa terganggu dengan suara kita. Biar lah lembut dan sedap didenger. ehehhh

*macam skema jawapan SPM lah pula nampaknya. haha. Jazakillah ustaz sebab menyediakan nota ringkas yang banyak ilmu dan faedah*

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Good Afternoon Teacher. Thank you teacher

Assalamualaikum :)

A little side track from my studies here.
 Because I just remembered an unfinished business. Even though it has been 4 months since my last day as a teacher. But I figured, it is a memory worth to remember

So during my holiday, a break between foundation and 1st year degree, I worked in two different places, whereby both of the places, I was called teacher.

I worked at kumon centre as a  marker. I loved the job because I just love seeing these smart students' progress. They come to me and ask questions and I answer. I teach them. I love teaching the preschoolers as well. they are super duper cute. especially anak-anak chinese ni. aaaah dooor aaa blleeee.

Also,
I was a 3rd grade English substitute teacher for about two months in SK seafield. My aunt is the real teacher. but since she was just went in labour at the time she got 3 months leave. So she offered me this job. I just couldn't resist. who could say no to kids?

I just love and adore kids. and they make me happy. I may not look that big or matured to them and I do get bullied by them sometimes. but I feel honored to even be called a teacher.

The minute you step in class, everyone stands up and wishes you a good evening. The minute you sit down, the girls rush up to you and report every news that happened in school. The minute you say take out your books and everyone makes their blurry innocent face. The time when you remember who were the students that always forget to bring their books, and when you walk near them, they pretend to search for their books in the their bag and desk. The time when everyone gives you their full paid attention when you are teaching. The time when you make random silly jokes, and they all laughed and smile. The moment when class finishes and they wish you a thank you, teacher.

priceless

how can some people not love children? They may be annoying sometimes, but I have to say it. They made my day. everyday. Their not so funny jokes. The kids teasing each other. Some are just so naughty I cant stand it. HAHA. They are more than my students. they are friends.

Precious memories. precious time.

It made me a better person. Spending time with chlidren, and I gained more respect for them. They are very special and wise. I learned so much from them. I learned that not everyone are the same. Each and everyone of them have a unique individual characteristic and abilities. There might be students that are slow learners, but they love to clean the class. There are the fast learner students, but are very lazy, and dont listen to directions very well.

Allah creates humans like this. we complete each other. Subhanallah. He is the best creator and planner there is.




I can't wait to have a few of own kids. #ehhhhhh hehehe

Thats all for tonighht

Assalamualaikum wrh.

Monday, October 28, 2013

Taking the next step in life

Assalamualaikum

Greetings 

Foooohhhhhhhhhhh. Tiup habuk jap. Fuuuuuhhh. *cough cough*

LOL

It has been months since I wrote anything here.
A lot has been going on so I figured why not post it on the blog. Besides I am currently doing an assignment for Proferssional and Personal Development module. (nahhh, I finished it already. hehe) I have to write a diary for any two days last week with pictures inserted. might as well since I am in my writing mode now, post it on my blog.
HAHA I'm not like the other students. Personally, I love to write diaries. K I just really love to write. Lets put it at that. 

Actually, so much had happened during the 4 months break period between Asasi and Degree. I don't even know where to start. But if I were to put it all in this post, until next week pun tak kan habis kot. HAHA.
tak apa lah. I'll write about my holiday in a different post.

Basically, I have become an under graduate student. I am enrolled in Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia under the medical faculty. *Doctor-to-be* InsyaAllah
I don't want to write much and just let the pictures explain all.
Because pictures are worth a thousand words. yelewww

Quoted by Sir ARHO
"students know the answers and how to do it but the problem is WHERE TO START"

ERRR.... ERMMMM.. HAAAAA.

K Sebenarnya dah dua bulan di UKM so so much has been going on. and IDK where to start leulz.

Alamak gambar blur plakzz. kononnya ni tengah study laa. candid la konon tengah study ni! 
 

PBL "Program Based Learning"
Learning from case studies. yeah thats me presenting. This PBL session was about Marfan Syndrome.
group ni namanya "The Infinite" ceh kononnya our bond will be infinitely strong. cooperation and teamwork is infinite.


Clinical Booth Pesta Konvo. No, it's not a race car game or any video game. I don't know what you call it. but the thing can calculate your body mass index and your body fat percentage. cool kan. as for me? kehkeh. normal je. tak payah panggil ainmok dah. ainrus sudah. kata kaunselor, my body fat percentage weight and semua cantik dah. just keep it up. chyeahhh.  hehehehe no more #misiskeleton




ni haaa. cucuk jari sendiri. buat blood test. cool oh. super awesome. amazing. glucose level normal:) Alhamdulillah. nampak tak tekun nya di situ. boleh jadi Dr dah ni :)


my duty is to distribute the flyers. under the hot hot sun. in the hot hot heat. 
kepanasan di dunia tidak setanding dengan kepanasan di neraka kelak
nauzubillah. *ouch skit*
Ya Allah lindungi lah kami dari azab neraka. amin. 



 some more group stuff. 

tekun study ;) 
lol please dont be fooled. the is strictly an act. just for the diary assignment. 
lakonan semata-mata. hekhek

yeah thats me in my very own lab coat that has the UKM logo there. fakulti perubatan.
Alhamdulillah. I am chasing after my dreams. yang ibu bapa redhai and Allah redhai. InsyaAllah. 
lookie your little girl is growing up. following my daddy's footstep to become a doctor. making my parents wishes and request to have one of their child become a doctor.
I am honoured to be that child. mom and dad. this is all for you. after all you have done for me. All you have sacrificed for me. all the tuitions you sent me. berusaha payah to get me into boarding school. sending and picking me up all the way from Semesra. and came to visit me every other weekend. all the money you spent for my education fees and school allowance and school clothes and books and stationaries. and buying all the  things that I ask for. all that I want and need. braces and licence. semua. and teaching me how to be independent. th
All the dua's
 I can't thank you enough. 
I have the best parents in the world. and I am the luckiest girl to have them
Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. 

Things may not go as we like. and we may suffer from loses. but it will never stop us from reaching our dreams.

K lah Dr. Ain Mokhtar minta diri dulu. 

K tu je la kot. Assalamualaikum

from a-doctor-to-be

InsyaAllah. 



Saturday, June 22, 2013

Amazed by the dua's

Even though I fell and hurt my hand yesterday, even though my favorite shirt got ripped, even though the alarm didnt ring and I woke up late today, even though I was late the agent left without me, even though I had to go there myself, even though its far, even though I got scolded by my dad cuz we went the wrong way. All praise only to Allah. Because He kept his promise

"so, undoubtedly, along with the hardship there is ease"
(94:5)

Alhamdulillah today I passed my jpj test. And I got a call from sk seafield. They accepted my application. Tomorrow i'll start working as a backup teacher. In every hardships facing, Dont ever stop making du'a s. Allah really does listen. Subhanallah. And when ease comes along, be grateful and keep praising Him.

Friday, June 7, 2013

A Breath of Fresh Air

Hey June

*Hey Jude song playing but change it to June*

Anyways,

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

I feel like there are just some things that are still haunting me. My past. I don't really like how my past was nor am I proud of it, but let's just say, It made me the Muslim I am today. InsyaAllah

I actually took the time to read all of my past blog posts and I never realized how much anger I  . All of my posts were full of anger, bashing this and that, cussing here and there. Loads of whining, not satisfied with life. and bla bla bla. HAHA. wow I was so immature and such a child back then.

I'm trying to make a pledge to myself. Trying to erase all the bad things, bad personalities, bad thinking that i possessed. Getting rid of it all.

I have a new resolution. No. I don't need to wait till new years to make one.
I want to portray me as somebody cleaner and nicer. haha. New image kay. I'm trying so hard to not care what people say. Trying super hard. so yeah the new me huh.

Lol. The point is. I'm deleting my old posts. all the nonsense. haih. erase erase. Maybe people don't read it.  but I do. Allah read's it :O and I don't want to remember how I was back then. I just want to repair myself and be a better Muslim.

*just thought about updating ma blog. merepek je*

k la k la k la k la.  bye. as salam.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Dunya is just temporary


Have you felt like you’ve accomplished so much and get rewarded with all these fantastic things, big house, money, high-tech handphones, ipads, labtops, big cars, and got accepted to a well known university. And you feel like you have everything; great family, great friends, good grades etc. Is that the purpose of life? Could the acquisition of wealth guarantee happiness? Well, lremember this verse from the Quran :
“O My People! The life of this world is only temporary enjoyment, while the abode of hereafter is everlasting”  (Surah Al Mu’min : 39)

Our purpose of life is to ibadah or worship The Almighty who gave us the life and to please Him which we’ll lead us to Jannah. Dunya is indeed a temporary place for us to live as stated in this ayah. We are like a traveller. Our destination is Jannah where we’ll live forever. InsyaAllah. And Dunya is a pit stop that we take, to make preparations, and well it is where we are tested, to test our faith. Because in this  verse
“Do the people think that they will be left alone on saying “we believe,” and they will not be tested? We did test those who have gone before them. Allah has to see who are the truthful and who are the liars “ ( Surah An-kabut : 2-3)

Allah has even tested the people before us, among them are all the prophets and the people who were with them. We are all to be tested. All these rewards and ease in dunya are actually tests. In fact, ease is a more difficult test than hardships are..  Allah tests us whether we are grateful to Him or if we have patience, and tests us whether we still remember Him through all the temptations and rewards.
Rivalry in worldly increase distracts you (from the remembrance of Allah), till you come to the graves” (surah At-Takkathur: 1-2).


Because humans tend to forget The Creator when we are happy and our life is easy-going and only go to Allah when facing a tremendous hardship. Remember that nothing in dunya stays, whether it’s the hardships or the ease.  And remember that this ease, we are just borrowing them from Allah. Nothing is ours. Allah can take it from us whenever He wants.

“...We all belong to Allah and to Him we shall return.”  ( surah Al-Baqarah : 2:156)

People would wonder, “He/She doesn’t pray, or doesn’t cover their aurah, but Allah gives them straight A’s”  Allah tests his servants in dunya in any ways possible and different ways for different people. Some people are tested with being poor and have hardships.  And we hear people say “I have all I need there is to be happy even if I’m not really an obedient muslim, then why would Allah reward me with these?” which reward do we really want? Which reward are we really after? Rewards in dunya or rewards in akhirah? Temporary or eternal? We have sadly become distracted and absorbed by this dunya, and lost sight of our purpose
“No, you prefer the life of this world, while the hereafter is better and that which remains (Surah Al’laa : 16-17)


Life is just a test.  Don’t give into these temptations. We are given life here in dunya to obey Allah and all his order. To have faith in Allah, and to always remember Him no matter what; through thick or thin, through ease and hardships.

Believe in the azabs we’ll get if we don’t obey Him. Na’uzubillahiminzalik. Believe in the Day of Judgement where will be judged on our iman, ibadahs, practices, ihsan but on not how much money we had on earth.  Never let dunya into your heart. Hold dunya with your hands and believe in akhirah with your heart. We live here to be prepared for the life after We’ll never have all of dunya, but the eternity can be ours. And happiness can be ours by focusing on the reality of Allah’s reward, which is without reckoning. Everything in this world is accounted for, on our bank statement, every penny counts. In the akhirah, no hisab, just the Divine generosity, and that which is eternal is limitless and expression of His rahmah and generosity. Subhanallah. It will all worth it in the end, akhirah, when we step in to the beautifiul gardens of Paradise. InsyaAllah

It’s never too late to repent to Allah. Allah opens our door for taubah just so wide I can’t imagie MasyaAllah. He is the Forgiver, He is the most Merciful. He is the most Gracius.  Allah is near and he is waiting for us to go to Him, to cry to Him, to worship Him, to bend on our knees for Him, to pray Him, to let out all of our sorrows and griefs to Him, to have gratitude in Him. He’ll listen. He’ll never stop listening. Have eman and work righteous actions, and take small consistent steps to improve – you will enjoy super productivity in this world and joy in the next insha’Allah! O’Allah have mercy on us and save us from the hellfire.

“And those who believe and do righteousgood deeds, they are dwellers or paradise,they will dwell therein forever(surah Al Baqarah : 82)
There are just so many verses in the Quran on entering Jannah for the believers! Subhanallah!

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Ini lah kisah aku

bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah dan Maha Penyayang

Assalamualaikum. 

Alhamdulillah, Asasi Pintar sesi 12/13 pun dah sampai penghujungnya insyaAllah. Minggu depan ni kita orang akan menghadapi peperiksaan akhir sem. Semoga Allah berkati segala ilmu yang kita belajar dan permudahkan urusan kita pelajar asasi pintar. Semoga kita dapat lakukan yang terbaik dan berjaya di dunia dan akhirat. Amin.

Hmm So. Asasi Pintar. Sebenarnya kami ni biasa-biasa sahaja. Tak layak pun nama tu. Hmm tapi ya. Aku tak kan lupa asasi pintar. asasi pintar ni banyak ubahkan aku. Aku memang akan rindu Asasi Pintar. Sebab di Asasi Pintar aku jumpa orang-orang yang jadi kan aku macam ni sekarang. Banyak kenangan aku kat Kompleks Permata tu. Aku dah banyak menangis, gelak, ketawa, kecewa, bersuka, berduka, bergaduh, bercinta, mengeluh, kat situ. but those memories made  me who i am today.

yang aku ingat. aku masuk asasi pintar ni, aku fikir tempat ni akan jadi satu persinggahan je. pit stop. sebab setahun je kan? apa sangat la akan effect hidup aku.

tanpa aku sedari. aku ubah. sebabkan asasi pintar

aku masuk asasi pintar ni, tudung selebek. tak guna pin pun silang je dari bahu ke bahu. stokin tak pakai. lengan baju angkat sampai mana pun tak kesah. seluar ketat, baju singkat. Astaghfirullahal'azim. tapi itu la hakikatnya.

Namun duduk kat memana kita kena berkawan kan?

So aku berkenalan lah dengan 16 perempuan Asasi Pintar. sikit? ya, tapi cukup bagi aku. sudah berrmanfaat untuk aku.

Ada sebab aku ditempatkan di Asasi pintar ni. Ada sebab aku tolak MARA. Ada sebab aku tak dapat UM. ada sebab aku tak dapat fly. Semuanya ada sebab. Allah nak jadikan aku yang lebih baik. Jadi Dia temukan aku dengan orang-orang yang aku tak sangka aku boleh menjalinkan persahabatan yang kuat. Aku tak tau nak exspress feelings aku macam mana. Ya Allah. Aku bersyukur sangat aku jumpa dengan insan-insan yang sangat baik dan dapat ubahkan aku untuk jadi muslim yang lebih baik. Ya Allah. begitu Pemurah Dia. Begitu Penyangnya Dia.

Sebelum ni. siapa je lah aku? apa je lah yang aku tahu? mana aku tau ukhuwah tu apa. cetek ilmu agama aku kalau di bandingkan dengan diaorang ni. malu tau. malu. Aku tak penah pun dengar kisah-kisah nabi-nabi yang menjadi pengajaran. Aku tak nak bagi alasan aku duduk oversea sebab aku tak tau apa-apa tentang ilmu agama. Tapi ya. memang aku tak dididik pasal ilmu agama. aku tak pernah pergi sekolah agama. ayah mak aku tak pernah nasihatkan aku pasal agama. dulu aku tak kenal Allah. dulu aku tak mengerti Islam. aku tak tau apa itu aurat. solat. aku tak tau kenapa aku puasa. Aku tak reti mengaji. Jahil nya aku. Aku kesal. aku yang rugi. balik malaysia pun aku sama je. lagi teruk pun boleh. huru hara. sentuh sini sentuh sana. Terdedah sini sana. Tak ada siapa larang aku. Tak ada siapa terangkan kat aku haram halal. Tak ada siapa nak bagi nasihat. Tak ada siapa kenalkan aku kat Allah. Dosa menimbun-nimbun. Jahil. aku membesar dalam Jahiliah. Masa silam aku. Aku salahkan aku sendiri sebab aku tak penah ada usaha. Dan aku menyesal. Dan aku berasa rugi. Sebab aku tidak mengenali keindahan Islam itu.

Tapi Allah Maha Pemurah. Allah Maha Penyayang bukan?

Sungguh indah Allah bagi rahmat dan hidayah kepada hamba-hambaNya untuk berubah ke arah kebenaranNya.

Sedikit demi sedikit aku belajar. sedikit demi sedikit aku berubah. tanpa aku sedar pun. Allah bagi aku peluang. Allah hantar orang-orang yang baik kepada aku supaya aku dapat mengerti apa itu Islam. supaya aku dapat lebih mengenali siapa itu Allah swt.

Sampai lah sini di asasi pintar. aku bersyukur. Allah telah hantar kepada aku Izzah Nor, Hanis, Syahirah, Ainaa, Safura, Mardhi, Siti, Ain Fitria, Norazyan, Izzah Hameeda, Audi, Dayang, Alya.

Aku tak sangka aku dapat berjumpa dengan orang-orang macam ni. Mereka membimbing aku. membantu aku. begitu kuat ukhuwah yang kita bina. mereka tak malu nak tegur kesilapan aku. mereka bagi nasihat .sedikit demi sedikit mereka berjaya  runtuh ego aku. mereka dapat lembutkan hati aku. 

dulu mana aku tau apa tu usrah? siapa nak ajak aku pegi usrah? aku tak tau pun tudung ada 45, 50 60. siapa nak kenal kan kat aku surah al  kahf. siapa nak ajak aku baca al mathurat? siapa nak ajak aku qiamulai? tak kenal pun siapa Hilal Asyraf or Fatimah Syarha dulu? siapa nak kenal kan aku siapa tu Hijjaz? UNIC? In-Team? Siapa nak ajak aku pergi Kem Sinergi? siapa nak kenalkan aku UKHUWAHFILLAH? aku tak faham kenapa aku selalu sedih? kenapa aku tak dapat kebahagiaan seperti orang lain? 

"La Tahzan. Innallaha ma'ana"

ayat yang aku selalu ulang bila aku ditempuh dugaan dan cabaran, semasa aku tengah membina kekuatan iman. pendek. tapi bermakna. memang aku serius aku cakap. hati aku selalu resah. gelisah. jiwa aku tak tenteram semasa aku masih tengah mencari diri. emosi aku tak stabil. bila happy, happy yang berpura-pura. sedih. sampai sedih yang melampau. sampai aku tak boleh nak menahan kesedihan. dan aku tak boleh nak pendam perasaan. asik nak salahkan diri. asik nak cari kesalahan orang. semuanya tak betul. semunya salah. tak jumpa erti kebahagiaan. dan pada masa itu aku berasa jauh. jauh daripada Allah.

daripada kisah Nabi Musa. Allah telah berjawab:
"Aku lebih dekat dari ulat leher kalian..atau dimana saja kalian menghadap distu wujud wajahKu...dan Aku ini maha meliputi segala sesuatu."

dan aku jumpa satu ayat ni.

"If you ever feel the distance between you and Allah is getting bigger, just remember that Allah hasn't moved an inch"

Tersedarlah aku bahawa Allah sentiasa ada dengan hamba-hambaNya. Aku je yang buta hati. dan aku musahabah diri. aku pergi dekat kawan-kawan aku. meluahkan persaaan aku. segala isi hati aku. aku menangis. dan mereka menangis bersama-sama aku. itu ukhuwahfillah. mereka tak berhenti-henti bagi nasihat, kata-kata motivasi supaya aku kuatkan diri. ingat Allah. ingat Allah. itu ukhuwahfillah. mereka ingatkan aku ini semua ujian daripada Allah. dan aku patut bersyukur Allah bagi ujian kat aku. sebab ujian itu tanda kasih sayang daripada Allah. itu ukhuwahfillah. subhanAllah. kerana ukhuwah yang kuat kita jalinkan. kerana sahabat-sabahat. dan kerana Allah. dari situ. aku mulakan satu penghijrahan. aku mulakan azam baru. seperti terdetik satu cahaya di dalam hati aku.

"Kalau kita berubah  untuk jadi baik kerana Allah, Allah akan hantar orang-orang yang baik untuk bersama-sama kita."

SubhanAllah. indahnya rahmat Allah bagi. Indahnya persahabatan kerana Allah. Ukhuwah yang kita bina kerana Allah. Tak sangka aku dapat ubah macam ni. Aku bersyukur sangat dapat kawan-kawan yang  mendampingi aku ketika aku susah, lemah, sedih, dan kecewa. Allah hantar mereka untuk beri semangat kepada aku untuk terus ke arah jalan Allah. supaya aku menjadi lebih kuat. supaya aku dapat bina iman yang lebih teguh. supaya aku menjadi hamba yang bersyukur. supaya aku jadi muslimah yang lebih bertaqwa. SubhanAllah.aku telah berubah 360 darjah. aku bukan lah aku yang dulu. Alhamdulillah. aku telah tinggalkan zaman jahiliah aku. MaasyAllah. Indahnya hidayah Allah bagi kat aku.

Begitu kuatkan persahabatan bila kita bina bedasarkan Allah? dengan asasnya Iman? SubhanAllah. sekarang aku faham apa tu persahabatan. dan aku berasa untung aku dapat merasainraya. Alhamdulillah. aku tau apa tu rasa kebahagiaan yang sebenar. Kebahagiaan apabila segala yang kita lakukan kita akan ingat Allah. Semua yang kita buat semua kerana Allah. Allahuakbar.

yang dulu tak pakai stokin. sekarang peliknya tak berstokin. yang dulu tak penah beli hand socks. sekarang menimbun-nimbun handsocks dalam drawer. yang dulu pakai skinny jeans. sekarang aku pakai sluar slacks je and nak start pakai skirt. yang dulu tak suka pakai baju kurung. sekarang bukan setakat baju kurung, berjubah lah jadi pilihan. yang dulu tak pakai tudung. sekarang aku lebih selesa pakai tudung labuh. yang dulu  pakai baju ketat dan sendat. sekarang aku pilih untuk berpakaian yang labuh dan longgar. yang dulu anti gila lagu nasyid. sekarang lagu nasyid la yang aku nyanyi. yang dulu suka bergaul sakan dengan lelaki. sekarang aku jaga batasan. yang dulu tak penah jadi imam, sekarang aku boleh imamkan adik and mak. yang dulu cintan cantun dengan manusia. sekarang cinta aku hanya kepada Yang Esa. 

dan InsyaAllah. If God is willing. aku akan terus istiqamah dalam penghijrahan ini. 

"bila aku berkata aku sedang berubah.
.kadang kala diri ini terbatas juga.
maka,
tegurlah, bukan menghukum
sayangilah, bukan memfitnah
maafkanlah, bukan membenci
senangkanlah, bukan menyusah.
diri ini masih lemah, mudah terlupa mudah terleka. 
aku perlu panduan"


Di sini. aku hanya nak menyampaikan cerita aku.

who would have thought a city girl like me living the ultimate city life could change to become a muslimah?

dan semestinya. dalam setiap perkara yang kita lakukan , ada manusia mungkin tak senang hati tengok kita. mungkin ada yang akan mempersoalkan penghijrahan kita. berkata "ish. menunjuk-nunjuk je dia ni" ataupun "tak payah nak bajet alim sangat la." ingat. hanya Allah swt sahaja yang berhak menilai hamba-hambaNya. sama ada aku menunjuk-nunjuk, bajet  sahaja, atau benar ikhlas kerana Allah swt. Allah Maha Mengetahui. dan bila orang lain tengok orang yang telah berhijrah. berkata "oh. dia ni.. dah lain la.. dah berubah ekk.." dan terdetik di hatinya ingin menjadi seperti orang itu. tidak kah dakwah kita sampai kepada orang lain?  semestinya ada yang akan bahan? mungkin. mengutuk? mungkin. mengejek? mungkin. tapi itu semua ujian daripada Allah. untuk aku jadi muslimah yang lebih kuat.

Alhamdulillah. Segala puji bagi Allah. terima kasih Allah.

SubhanAllah. Islam itu mudah. Islam itu indah. Allah Maha Pemurah. Allah Maha Penyayang.

Allah Maha Pengampun 

"sejauh mana kaki kita tersasar ingatlah, Allah sentiasa ada dan tak pernah tinggalkan kita"

Jangan lah hilang harapan. Sesungguhnya Allah tak pernah hilang harapan terhadap hamba-hambaNya untuk berubah jadi lebih baik.

 Allah will always give you a chance to be better. Allah loves his creations. Allah is fair. Allah is loving. Allah is giving. Allah will give His forgiveness to those who earn it. to those who obey Him. to those who is willing to change because of Him.

Bertaubat lah sayang-sayang sebelum terlambat. Rahmat Allah luas. Rahmat Allah sentiasa ada.

Kita nak jadi penghuni Jannah kan sayang? kita tak nak lah tercampak dalam Jahanam sana. sanggup kah? nauzubillah min zalik.

"Berubahlah sayang. Allah sentiasa menantimu"

SubhanAllahh walhamdulillah wa lailahaillallah huallahuakbar.

Di sini aku ingin memohon seribu kemaafan serta keampunan dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki. Kalau ada apa-apa tesilap kata, sila tegur :)

Assalamualaikum.