One Year Later (recap 2nd year)

Assalamualaikum and Hi.

After more than one year, I finally decided to open my blog.
Well yeah it sure was ONE HECTIC YEAR.

To recap what has happened within the one year;

I didn't post anything at all during my 2nd year in medical school ukm. This is what happened

[1ST SEMESTER]
The preclinical students had to stay in UKM Bangi campus for one semester. which was hrrmmm. agak menyusahkan. We were on the bas at 6.30 am to go to Cheras and back to Bangi at 5pm. Go through traffic jam and all that stuff. arrive at bangi at 6pm. EVERYDAY. It was exhausting

*Module*
-Blood&Lymph
-Cardiovascular system
-Respiratory system
-Urinary system

At this point of the preclinical year, the topics became more interesting. We actually learn about diseases and stuff. There were sessions where we were able to go to the dissection hall and actually hold heart and lungs and stuff.

People say CVS module is the toughest in this semester. There's a lot of physiology and pharmacology. I repeat. PHARMACOLOGY. Students banyak kantoi kat pharmacology la I think. But if you could thoroughly understand physiology, I don't think pharmacology would be a trouble. oh and ANATOMY. haha. sebab soalan famous is the embryology question. Sebab orang selalu baca topic ni last sekali ( ingat tak penting ) but tetiba keluar essay. mampus. CVS suka juga keluarkan anatomy yang macam-macam. even though it is just one heart. but ventricle have it's own story, atrium is a different story. hey, aorta and pulmonary trunk pun ada their own story tau. and all the great vessels pun is another story. so cover that la ye.

Respiratory and urinary system. macam biasalah.. mahir physiology.. get to know pathology.. and then the pharmacology according to the pathology. like TB and their drugs. Asthma and their drugs. so and so..

Within this semester. I was superrrrr busy with sports. I entered 3 sports. Basketball, Handball, and Netball. Dah lah duduk dekat Bangi. latihan kat Cheras. Just imagine. and the training was at night pula tu. My friends said my car became my closet. and I was like "Liz Murray" in the one movie we watch during PPD, because Liz Murray sleep on the streets. HAHA in other words. MEREMPAT.

I did pretty well during this semester though. I got my pointer up to where I wanted it. I just wanted to prove, tak ada alasan ye adik-adik. Walau sibuk mana pun. There is always time to study.

Tapi semester ni juga la, I practically lived in the library (blok pendidikan). I hunted the library. Found really awesome books. Because I knew I was gonna be busy with sports and stuff. so any free time that I had I'd spend it in the library. reading textbooks, and making notes. buat PBL serta merta. totally worth it okay. Jangan takut orang cakap "peghhh study kat library siot" or what ever kan. Ehhh peduli lah..

[2nd SEMESTER]
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
why the big laugh?
because I kinda became orang gila this semester. LOL.

First of all, I joined soooo many programs. tooo many programs. tak terkata. like penah , one weekend there was 4 events. in one weekend! Serabut. SERABUT!

Because I'm just someone who doesn't know how to say NO. When people offer me to join any programmes, and they would plead. I just don't have the heart to reject. Selagi mampu aku bermonolog. memang lah mampu. But emotionally. hmmm? hati je tahu. A lot of programmes, a lot of positions, a lot of meetings. On the outside, I try to act strong and happy always. People wouldn't even know I had a problem. Tapi sampai bilik. hrrmmmm.....

So adik-adik please jangan masuk macam-macam programme. satu dua just to gain exprience is enough. PLEASE BE ABLE TO SAY NO. Please be assertive.

walau bagaimanapun. I promised to myself, I wouldn't let this extra curricular activities affect my studies. It didn't. I improved. Did even better than the 1st semester. so again, just to prove that, being busy is not an acceptable reason.  There is always enough time. Its just the matter of how you sort your time. How you use your time.

*module*
-Gastrointestinal System
-Endocrine System
-Central Nervous System
-Reproductive System

What I did different this 2nd year when compared to 1st year (despite being even busier). I used textbooks. I read beyond lecture notes. I added so many notes around the lecture notes. extra info. Because I found that library in the blok pendidikan is awesome. I borrowed a few books. but actually read like one book that I find very helpful. and stick to that throughout the module. Yeah..

GIT and CNS - 5 credit hour guyyyyysss!
despite it being what they call it "THE MOST TOUGHEST MODULE" yeah wrong grammar ye adik-adik. I did better in these two modules compared to endo and Reproductive. So jangan lah cuak sangat ye adik-adik. GIT and CNS is very interesting. Jangan takut sebab ada even more than 20 lectuers (tak termasuk SLP and MES and stuff hiks. berlambak). Memang, you have to read beyond the lecture notes. find additional information to really understand it. First of all ANATOMY. anatomy ANATOMY ANATOMY. should be at the end of your finger tips. bukan setakat the anatomy of the organ and then blood supply and lymph buat tatau je. No no no. jangan. soalan blood supply to famous okay. memang kena khatam la anatomy.
hrmmm what else. physiology, pathology, pharmacology... kena baca and faham juga la okay. untuk CNS physiology banyak la jugak. but okay jeee :D this is two really fun module! sebab nanti nak bawa ke klinikal. so fikir, kita study bukan untuk Ace the Exam. sebab nanti ilmu ni diperlukan lagi untuk klinikal nanti.

Summary,

Don't give "busy" or "not enough time" a reason to not do well in studies. Allah bagi kita banyakkkk masa. cukup masa.

The truth is,

dalam banyak-banyak benda yang aku masuk and aku kena buat. I promised to myself that I won't avoid my faith, my religion. Memang risau, what happens to my faith after being so busy in dunya. tah kemana tah campak agama. but mana boleh macam tu kan. So, I devoted time. I joined the jemaah prayers for maghrib and isya' at the surau (I try to). and that time is strictly for me and Allah. hal dunya jangan campur. and also, every wednesday, pergi kelas hafazan.

So "masa "tu memang kena pandai bahagikan. akhirah and dunya. jangan focus pada dunya saja sampaikan akhirah dilupakan. Tak berkat la the things we do in dunya. Allah dah bagi kita enough time. It's is up to us to use it wisely.

:)

PBLmates

Handball

PBL mates in "CSL session"

apa ni?

"Amsep Malaysia-Phillipene

Mistake. It's a learning process

It doesn't matter if you've done a million good things, but when only once you do something wrong, you're seen as a bad person forever.

It's hard to satisfy and nothing will ever be enough

But we're humans. You. Me. We try our best but we'll make mistakes, It's the matter of forgiving and acceptance. and learning. Because making mistakes is the best teachers.

When you succeed,
you earn something,
when you fail,
you learn something
you need both

STEP BY STEP
There is no elevator to succe, it'snot gonna be easy. But it will be worth it in the end

Be patient, learn to forgive.

reality check to myself, do good without expecting anything in return :)

K K K

hajat habis tahun 1 haritu nak active balik berbloggin. tapi tapi. satu post pun tak dok. hampehh. konon je semangat banyak topic dah ada dalam kepala nak blog. sampai ke rumah, haihh berhabuk laptopnya. Last-last tinggal berapa hari je nak masuk UKM. Isnin ni masuk balik la kita. back to reality. back to medic student life. byebye housewife life. ehhh

Sooo cuti ni aku banyak luangkan masa sorang2. duduk rumah sorang2. ye lah housewife kan. haritu duduk kelantan seminggu sorang2. tunggu kul 5 ptg baru ayah balik. so i've been thinking a lot. a lot . a lot . about me. about life. about future. about the ummah. about whats happening around me. about what it means. about family. banyak la. kusut minda fikirkan sampai tumbuh jerawat tak hilang-hilang. hm tak dok kerja lain ka? i dont know.

HAHA

So ive been thinking lately. aku suka bagi hadiah present kat kawan-kawan, banyak dah aku spend sebab beli hadiah untuk dorang. kalau tak aku beli cake ke. kalau tak aku akan bagi wish panjang-panjang. atau siap buat collage gambar centu. sebab aku nak tunjuk appreciation. appreciate them for being my friend. because i feel everyone deserves to feel appreciated.
 hmm. aku pun kalau ada apa-apa program kawan ajak aku join je. atau ada kawan tengah cari orang pun aku join je. sebab apa aku tau susah nak cari orang nak join program-program ni. ingat orang suka ke? niat aku nak senangkan dorang. and bagi dorang support. salah ke? sampaikan ada sekali tu, dua kawan ajak aku masuk satu program ni. so aku join aje la. but then dorang dua-dua drop out from that program. tinggal aku sorang je. dorang dah kena marah dah tu. tak kan aku nak drop out juga sebabkan kawan je. nanti lagi banyak susahkan commitee. tak ke? last-last aku join program tu takde kawan pun. tapi dapat gain experience and get to know new people la. tak rugi apa pun. setakat duit je. sebab kena bayar la kan. hmm its okay la. *pujuk hati*

ada someone cakap kat aku aku ni beriya. hmmm. bukan nak cakap tak perasan yang selama ni aku memang beriya atau "shock sendiri". tapi thats not a great way to put it. so yeah memang aku beriya. hmm.

contoh macam masa cuti. kan tak jumpa kawan-kawan. and sekarang dah masuk uni. tak jumpa sangat kawan-kawan dari sekolah menengah. so i took all the effort untuk contact dorang tanya apa khabar semua semua tu. call dorang bila aku ada free call. or text dorang bila ada free time. and arrange perjumpaan beramai-ramai. kalau tak, lepak-lepak dengan siapa-siapa yang ada je. selalunya kerja aku la tu. sampaikan aku buat bbq untuk classmates aku. and i went milestones u know. nak masak . amik dorang . takpa aku sanggup. selalunya aku mula dulu.

and kalau ada event-event alumni sekolah, atau kawan-kawan ada buat majlis ke apa. aku pergi. kalau aku dijemput aku akan pergi. i'll go throught the milestones. kalau tak, aku at least aku ada terfikir nak pergi. tapi rationally memang tak dapat la pegi kalau malam-malam kan. sebab apa. tu lah. kalau dah orang ajak and kebetulan tak ada yang menghalang, why not. aku tak nak susah kan kawan untuk cari orang lain sedangkan aku free je. sebolehnya aku nak senangkan kawan-kawan aku. aku nak support dorang.

beriya ? ya memang beriya.

bukan nak mengungkit. but just terfikir.


have anyone done anything for me?


ayat yang aku selalu ulang untuk sedapkan hati ialah

"kita lakukan kebaikan kerana Allah swt. bukan kerana manusia. Biar lah manusia tak nampak. asalkan Allah swt nampak. janji ikhlas kita tolong orang, buat baik kat orang kerana Allah swt"

nak pujuk hati. aku ulang. tak pe ain, kau buat ni bukan untuk orang. kau buat ni untuk Allah swt. dalam membuat kebaikan jangan expect pembalasan. sebab pembalasan Allah swt tu lagi hebat

beriya? tak nafikan. sebelum ni just tak penah terfikir perkataan "beriya" tu. until ada orang cakap kat aku. tak sangka plak sampai ke dia pun boleh perasan beriyanya aku. orang yang baru kenal aku. then i guess memang aku macam tu la kot.

no, i never really get a "ain apa khabar lama tak dengar cerita" message daripada kawan-kawan lama macam aku selalu buat (used to though) .  never really got a surprised phone call macam aku selalu buat (used to). rarely even get birthday present.

I treasure really dearly treasure kalau ada. ada tu memang ada. takde lah takde lifenya aku sampai takde. haha. takde lah. ada je.

bukan nak kata kesian kat aku. but thats just how i am. mana lah aku tau baik-baik dengan orang tak kan sampai ke mana pun. i dont know. i guess im just someone that comes into someones life be friends, and not make a mark. and when im gone, gone lah. walau macam mana pun aku cuba, people just dont remember me as how i remember them.

i was just taught to be nice. be good to people. show appreciation to people. guess thats not the way ?

tapi tu lah ceritanya.