My Third Culture Kid Experience.
it took me a while adapting to a place im supposed to call "home" . "Home" because it's where I was born. But it's not "home" because it's not a place im comfortable in. and heck Im still adapting to it right now. Despite being here for 10 years already. There are still struggles that I face and still learning to cope. But i'd say I'm a quite normal Malay now because I spent my teenage phase here. so it shaped me to becoming who I am now. but I'll never forget my childhood, that valuble exerience I'd never change it for anything.
Being an asian TCK, it's hard to commit. until now, Im so used to changing schools, saying goodbye that it's hard for me to remain in close contact with people. I get jealous of people who are still close with their primary school friends and they'd have reminiscents of the time when they were in first grade. and look forward to school reunions. and Im like my elementary school friends are all over the world.
I remember when I was a kid, I would make friends and I would tell myself. Ain, dont get yourself too attach. you know one day you'd have to move again. and it'd be hard to let go. Thus, I am someone who is okay with having transient friendship but has difficulty to remain a friendship
Being an asian TCK, Im not called by my name how it's supposed to be pronounced. come on, can I expect an American be able to pronounce Ain. Aaaain (kat tekak tu). Norain. you think they know that my name has three syllabus? So because im tooo lazy to teach people how to pronounce my name everytime. im okay with No-Rain. coincidently my 3rd grade teacher's name was Ms.Lorraine. it was similar. hahaa. I told my high school friends this, and they end up calling me by that. (mesti orang pelik kalau dorang comment kat FB dorang tulis Norain. cam apehal skema gila tulis nama penuh. but actually they're really saying No-Rain. haha)
Being an asian TCK, my "mother-tongue" is soo poor. and it still is. haha. Im sorry if I have trouble pronouncing certain words, or I misspelled words, or misused words, or get my grammar so wrong. I didnt go to primary school here. so I missed the wholeeeee grammar and vocab part. suddenly when I came back to Malaysia Im supposed to write a 300 words essay? pffffft. hah. speaking of struggles. I remember in form one, i'd get comments from my BM teacher "jangan guna perkataan bahasa inggeris dalam karangan bahasa melayu." welll waddaya expect? you want me to leave a space blank there? (shrugs) I think Im like the only malay student who literally reads "Tatabahasa" book. like literally read about all those grammar things just to pass the exam. I shocked people by getting an A for BM in pmr and spm . bahaha but is unable to apply the knowledge. lol.
Being an asian TCK, I acquired this "accent". it used to be an American accent, but now after mixing it up with malay language, it doesnt sound so american anymore.. ? (shrugs). i'd get, are you indonesian? are you from UK? noooo, I can not do a British accent. no. epic failure. I'd still have friends who'd mock my accent because of how I pronounce my R's and T's. like Butter. i'd say budderr. not bate(softR). or Uterine as Uderrrine. and paper as payperrr. and soil as soy-yel. But I like my accent. it's like the one and only thing that I still have of US and that reminds me of my childhood.
Being and asian TCK im fine with humblity (is that a word). I have a big family, and my dad was just a PHD student. the whole family had to work for extra money. So im not ashamed that my clothes were from goodwill, and we'd shop for 2nd hand clothes, and my family would be excited looking for garage sales. and we'd collect cans every football season to get extra pocket money. We'd go to foodbanks to get free food. We'd wait for the community to give out free winter clothings. Dont think that we who grew up in the US had a daisy and blossum life there. shopping in branded stores and wear lavashing clothes. nope. So I dont mind if I buy clothes in pasar malam. I dont mind if I buy things from "bundles". I dont mind if my things are old and rugged. as long as I can still use it.
The struggles. nope I wouldnt say it as a struggling. more like "the way of life." You have to work hard to get what you want/need, and you have to adapt to how much you can afford.
2 kerja? my dad did like 3-4 kerja when he was a PHD student to raise his 6 children in the US. ingat senang ke? my dad is a dean and he gets picked up from the airport by a KENARI. and he doesnt mind that XD
We just had a humble life growing up in the US. not like what you see in the TV. but the experience I gain, I wouldnt change it for anything
Sunday, February 28, 2016
Thursday, November 12, 2015
One Year Later (recap 2nd year)
Assalamualaikum and Hi.
After more than one year, I finally decided to open my blog.
Well yeah it sure was ONE HECTIC YEAR.
To recap what has happened within the one year;
I didn't post anything at all during my 2nd year in medical school ukm. This is what happened
[1ST SEMESTER]
The preclinical students had to stay in UKM Bangi campus for one semester. which was hrrmmm. agak menyusahkan. We were on the bas at 6.30 am to go to Cheras and back to Bangi at 5pm. Go through traffic jam and all that stuff. arrive at bangi at 6pm. EVERYDAY. It was exhausting
*Module*
-Blood&Lymph
-Cardiovascular system
-Respiratory system
-Urinary system
At this point of the preclinical year, the topics became more interesting. We actually learn about diseases and stuff. There were sessions where we were able to go to the dissection hall and actually hold heart and lungs and stuff.
People say CVS module is the toughest in this semester. There's a lot of physiology and pharmacology. I repeat. PHARMACOLOGY. Students banyak kantoi kat pharmacology la I think. But if you could thoroughly understand physiology, I don't think pharmacology would be a trouble. oh and ANATOMY. haha. sebab soalan famous is the embryology question. Sebab orang selalu baca topic ni last sekali ( ingat tak penting ) but tetiba keluar essay. mampus. CVS suka juga keluarkan anatomy yang macam-macam. even though it is just one heart. but ventricle have it's own story, atrium is a different story. hey, aorta and pulmonary trunk pun ada their own story tau. and all the great vessels pun is another story. so cover that la ye.
Respiratory and urinary system. macam biasalah.. mahir physiology.. get to know pathology.. and then the pharmacology according to the pathology. like TB and their drugs. Asthma and their drugs. so and so..
Within this semester. I was superrrrr busy with sports. I entered 3 sports. Basketball, Handball, and Netball. Dah lah duduk dekat Bangi. latihan kat Cheras. Just imagine. and the training was at night pula tu. My friends said my car became my closet. and I was like "Liz Murray" in the one movie we watch during PPD, because Liz Murray sleep on the streets. HAHA in other words. MEREMPAT.
I did pretty well during this semester though. I got my pointer up to where I wanted it. I just wanted to prove, tak ada alasan ye adik-adik. Walau sibuk mana pun. There is always time to study.
Tapi semester ni juga la, I practically lived in the library (blok pendidikan). I hunted the library. Found really awesome books. Because I knew I was gonna be busy with sports and stuff. so any free time that I had I'd spend it in the library. reading textbooks, and making notes. buat PBL serta merta. totally worth it okay. Jangan takut orang cakap "peghhh study kat library siot" or what ever kan. Ehhh peduli lah..
[2nd SEMESTER]
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
why the big laugh?
because I kinda became orang gila this semester. LOL.
First of all, I joined soooo many programs. tooo many programs. tak terkata. like penah , one weekend there was 4 events. in one weekend! Serabut. SERABUT!
Because I'm just someone who doesn't know how to say NO. When people offer me to join any programmes, and they would plead. I just don't have the heart to reject. Selagi mampu aku bermonolog. memang lah mampu. But emotionally. hmmm? hati je tahu. A lot of programmes, a lot of positions, a lot of meetings. On the outside, I try to act strong and happy always. People wouldn't even know I had a problem. Tapi sampai bilik. hrrmmmm.....
So adik-adik please jangan masuk macam-macam programme. satu dua just to gain exprience is enough. PLEASE BE ABLE TO SAY NO. Please be assertive.
walau bagaimanapun. I promised to myself, I wouldn't let this extra curricular activities affect my studies. It didn't. I improved. Did even better than the 1st semester. so again, just to prove that, being busy is not an acceptable reason. There is always enough time. Its just the matter of how you sort your time. How you use your time.
*module*
-Gastrointestinal System
-Endocrine System
-Central Nervous System
-Reproductive System
What I did different this 2nd year when compared to 1st year (despite being even busier). I used textbooks. I read beyond lecture notes. I added so many notes around the lecture notes. extra info. Because I found that library in the blok pendidikan is awesome. I borrowed a few books. but actually read like one book that I find very helpful. and stick to that throughout the module. Yeah..
GIT and CNS - 5 credit hour guyyyyysss!
despite it being what they call it "THE MOST TOUGHEST MODULE" yeah wrong grammar ye adik-adik. I did better in these two modules compared to endo and Reproductive. So jangan lah cuak sangat ye adik-adik. GIT and CNS is very interesting. Jangan takut sebab ada even more than 20 lectuers (tak termasuk SLP and MES and stuff hiks. berlambak). Memang, you have to read beyond the lecture notes. find additional information to really understand it. First of all ANATOMY. anatomy ANATOMY ANATOMY. should be at the end of your finger tips. bukan setakat the anatomy of the organ and then blood supply and lymph buat tatau je. No no no. jangan. soalan blood supply to famous okay. memang kena khatam la anatomy.
hrmmm what else. physiology, pathology, pharmacology... kena baca and faham juga la okay. untuk CNS physiology banyak la jugak. but okay jeee :D this is two really fun module! sebab nanti nak bawa ke klinikal. so fikir, kita study bukan untuk Ace the Exam. sebab nanti ilmu ni diperlukan lagi untuk klinikal nanti.
Summary,
Don't give "busy" or "not enough time" a reason to not do well in studies. Allah bagi kita banyakkkk masa. cukup masa.
The truth is,
dalam banyak-banyak benda yang aku masuk and aku kena buat. I promised to myself that I won't avoid my faith, my religion. Memang risau, what happens to my faith after being so busy in dunya. tah kemana tah campak agama. but mana boleh macam tu kan. So, I devoted time. I joined the jemaah prayers for maghrib and isya' at the surau (I try to). and that time is strictly for me and Allah. hal dunya jangan campur. and also, every wednesday, pergi kelas hafazan.
So "masa "tu memang kena pandai bahagikan. akhirah and dunya. jangan focus pada dunya saja sampaikan akhirah dilupakan. Tak berkat la the things we do in dunya. Allah dah bagi kita enough time. It's is up to us to use it wisely.
:)
After more than one year, I finally decided to open my blog.
Well yeah it sure was ONE HECTIC YEAR.
To recap what has happened within the one year;
I didn't post anything at all during my 2nd year in medical school ukm. This is what happened
[1ST SEMESTER]
The preclinical students had to stay in UKM Bangi campus for one semester. which was hrrmmm. agak menyusahkan. We were on the bas at 6.30 am to go to Cheras and back to Bangi at 5pm. Go through traffic jam and all that stuff. arrive at bangi at 6pm. EVERYDAY. It was exhausting
*Module*
-Blood&Lymph
-Cardiovascular system
-Respiratory system
-Urinary system
At this point of the preclinical year, the topics became more interesting. We actually learn about diseases and stuff. There were sessions where we were able to go to the dissection hall and actually hold heart and lungs and stuff.
People say CVS module is the toughest in this semester. There's a lot of physiology and pharmacology. I repeat. PHARMACOLOGY. Students banyak kantoi kat pharmacology la I think. But if you could thoroughly understand physiology, I don't think pharmacology would be a trouble. oh and ANATOMY. haha. sebab soalan famous is the embryology question. Sebab orang selalu baca topic ni last sekali ( ingat tak penting ) but tetiba keluar essay. mampus. CVS suka juga keluarkan anatomy yang macam-macam. even though it is just one heart. but ventricle have it's own story, atrium is a different story. hey, aorta and pulmonary trunk pun ada their own story tau. and all the great vessels pun is another story. so cover that la ye.
Respiratory and urinary system. macam biasalah.. mahir physiology.. get to know pathology.. and then the pharmacology according to the pathology. like TB and their drugs. Asthma and their drugs. so and so..
Within this semester. I was superrrrr busy with sports. I entered 3 sports. Basketball, Handball, and Netball. Dah lah duduk dekat Bangi. latihan kat Cheras. Just imagine. and the training was at night pula tu. My friends said my car became my closet. and I was like "Liz Murray" in the one movie we watch during PPD, because Liz Murray sleep on the streets. HAHA in other words. MEREMPAT.
I did pretty well during this semester though. I got my pointer up to where I wanted it. I just wanted to prove, tak ada alasan ye adik-adik. Walau sibuk mana pun. There is always time to study.
Tapi semester ni juga la, I practically lived in the library (blok pendidikan). I hunted the library. Found really awesome books. Because I knew I was gonna be busy with sports and stuff. so any free time that I had I'd spend it in the library. reading textbooks, and making notes. buat PBL serta merta. totally worth it okay. Jangan takut orang cakap "peghhh study kat library siot" or what ever kan. Ehhh peduli lah..
[2nd SEMESTER]
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
why the big laugh?
because I kinda became orang gila this semester. LOL.
First of all, I joined soooo many programs. tooo many programs. tak terkata. like penah , one weekend there was 4 events. in one weekend! Serabut. SERABUT!
Because I'm just someone who doesn't know how to say NO. When people offer me to join any programmes, and they would plead. I just don't have the heart to reject. Selagi mampu aku bermonolog. memang lah mampu. But emotionally. hmmm? hati je tahu. A lot of programmes, a lot of positions, a lot of meetings. On the outside, I try to act strong and happy always. People wouldn't even know I had a problem. Tapi sampai bilik. hrrmmmm.....
So adik-adik please jangan masuk macam-macam programme. satu dua just to gain exprience is enough. PLEASE BE ABLE TO SAY NO. Please be assertive.
walau bagaimanapun. I promised to myself, I wouldn't let this extra curricular activities affect my studies. It didn't. I improved. Did even better than the 1st semester. so again, just to prove that, being busy is not an acceptable reason. There is always enough time. Its just the matter of how you sort your time. How you use your time.
*module*
-Gastrointestinal System
-Endocrine System
-Central Nervous System
-Reproductive System
What I did different this 2nd year when compared to 1st year (despite being even busier). I used textbooks. I read beyond lecture notes. I added so many notes around the lecture notes. extra info. Because I found that library in the blok pendidikan is awesome. I borrowed a few books. but actually read like one book that I find very helpful. and stick to that throughout the module. Yeah..
GIT and CNS - 5 credit hour guyyyyysss!
despite it being what they call it "THE MOST TOUGHEST MODULE" yeah wrong grammar ye adik-adik. I did better in these two modules compared to endo and Reproductive. So jangan lah cuak sangat ye adik-adik. GIT and CNS is very interesting. Jangan takut sebab ada even more than 20 lectuers (tak termasuk SLP and MES and stuff hiks. berlambak). Memang, you have to read beyond the lecture notes. find additional information to really understand it. First of all ANATOMY. anatomy ANATOMY ANATOMY. should be at the end of your finger tips. bukan setakat the anatomy of the organ and then blood supply and lymph buat tatau je. No no no. jangan. soalan blood supply to famous okay. memang kena khatam la anatomy.
hrmmm what else. physiology, pathology, pharmacology... kena baca and faham juga la okay. untuk CNS physiology banyak la jugak. but okay jeee :D this is two really fun module! sebab nanti nak bawa ke klinikal. so fikir, kita study bukan untuk Ace the Exam. sebab nanti ilmu ni diperlukan lagi untuk klinikal nanti.
Summary,
Don't give "busy" or "not enough time" a reason to not do well in studies. Allah bagi kita banyakkkk masa. cukup masa.
The truth is,
dalam banyak-banyak benda yang aku masuk and aku kena buat. I promised to myself that I won't avoid my faith, my religion. Memang risau, what happens to my faith after being so busy in dunya. tah kemana tah campak agama. but mana boleh macam tu kan. So, I devoted time. I joined the jemaah prayers for maghrib and isya' at the surau (I try to). and that time is strictly for me and Allah. hal dunya jangan campur. and also, every wednesday, pergi kelas hafazan.
So "masa "tu memang kena pandai bahagikan. akhirah and dunya. jangan focus pada dunya saja sampaikan akhirah dilupakan. Tak berkat la the things we do in dunya. Allah dah bagi kita enough time. It's is up to us to use it wisely.
:)
PBLmates
Handball
PBL mates in "CSL session"
apa ni?
"Amsep Malaysia-Phillipene
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Mistake. It's a learning process
It doesn't matter if you've done a million good things, but when only once you do something wrong, you're seen as a bad person forever.
It's hard to satisfy and nothing will ever be enough
But we're humans. You. Me. We try our best but we'll make mistakes, It's the matter of forgiving and acceptance. and learning. Because making mistakes is the best teachers.
When you succeed,
you earn something,
when you fail,
you learn something
you need both
STEP BY STEP
There is no elevator to succe, it'snot gonna be easy. But it will be worth it in the end
Be patient, learn to forgive.
It's hard to satisfy and nothing will ever be enough
But we're humans. You. Me. We try our best but we'll make mistakes, It's the matter of forgiving and acceptance. and learning. Because making mistakes is the best teachers.
When you succeed,
you earn something,
when you fail,
you learn something
you need both
STEP BY STEP
There is no elevator to succe, it'snot gonna be easy. But it will be worth it in the end
Be patient, learn to forgive.
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