this is what happen when you take away internet from me for 2 weeks

semua benda tak kena!

ini salah itu salah. segala-galanya tak betul. i can't even make up my mind! should i or should i not?

what should i do? i'm not going to sleep until i figure out what i should do when i wake up. should i go to work? or should i just go on with my day off. but if my day off turns out to be a day sitting at home being a lazy couch potato. then rugi nya cuti. i'm afraid that'll happen. but what if i went to work ans my sister decided to hangout for her birthday. but what if she comes home very tired and decides not to go out. seee, i can't even make up my mind. i need some to help me find an answer. but anyways i'm working morning shift so we could just have a birthday dinner. anyways ayah is going with amirul to do something and mak is working. adik and aiman are going to school. and balong is working. so i don't think anybody will be home anyways. like 51% of me says i should go to work. anyways i'll be home at 6. then 49% of me says i should go on with my day off. so bite me -.- but i think i'm going to work. sorry kakngah :( we'll still have a birthday dinner with everyone here. except balong will be at work.

work work work. is that all i can talk about? well i am working like 5 days a week. 1o hours a day. what other possible things can go on. am i not correct? omg who am i talking to. haha. so work is like completely not fun anymore. it used to be. i used to be so happy when a customer comes and ask for help. now i'm like oh its just there at that shelf. in my heart im like * you can go search it yourself*. but that wouldn't be appropriate now wouldn't it. haha. i used to be so excited to work and feel responsible and hardworking and all. but now its like BLAH. seriously i can't think of a single word in the dictionary that can describe the way i feel. haha. i have not a mood at all to search for books.

a customer comes and ask for a book. then he makes a comment "it's hard isn't it find a book. don't you guys arrange the books in alphabetical order?"

yeah duhhhh. i've been saying that all this while. but typical malay. i dont know. i can't really say it in public. HAHA.

okay susah gila tau tak nak cari buku. especially when the book is not suppose to be on that shelf. or especially when all the books aren't perfectly arranged. i dont know.

i had this conversation with my colleagues. that reminds me. i miss them. all of the people that i worked with since i've started which is on new years has all gone. now are all new people. and it's not the same. i like how the people were in january. it was much funner then. haha. lunch dates and all. dulu i look forward to work so i can meet up my colleagues i dont know just because. now it's like i don't look forward in seeing anybody. idk. i miss them okay. i miss the oh my god. the i don't knows. the screw yous. and the like like. and the english and all. hahah. it's nice to speak in full english with someone okay.

sam. furqan. farhana. anis. hairi. ilias. azery. fiza. aishah.

just felt like typing their names there. no motive. goshh i miss them.

OMG I CAN T WAIT TO GO BACK TO REMBAUUUUU

i miss everything about it. even how much i swear to myself i won't be the one thats so omg i miss this that this that. haha. but i do. i can't help it. the life there is just so EASY. i just know what to do and when to do it. everything is as it's has been planned out. i never get bored of my daily routines. and it always run perfectly well. i miss playing basketball. i miss just sitting on my chair at my desk just staring out of the window to the assembly ground. i miss walking at the night times. hostel life is so much fun. and i'm so greatful to have an experience like that. not everyone has the chance, so it's a great thing to talk about when i meet new people. kan.

so i'm meeting up few ex school mates. and dearest ex classmate. i really miss just sitting in class and chit chat. i miss them. so i can't wait to go back to school and re minis everything.

growing up is tough. gradually stepping into the "real life" is a challenge. i just need to be prepared. and i need to expect the unexpected. i must let go of my school/hostel life as it's the past. it just is what it is. this week i realize that i'm growing up. i'm not longer a kid. and this is the real deal. i don't ask money from my parents anymore. i'm hanging out with older people and going back home late. my mom no longer drive me to and from anywhere. i top up with my own money. i wash my own clothes. i cook my own food. this is it man. how do i put this. I AM SCARED

okay thats it. au revoir :)

Is it to late to say hey 2012

Ehem, ehem

I'm glad to say I have been employed. WOHO. where you say? mph subang parade. i worked there for only two days and then i get two days off. how cool is that huh.

2012 started with some highs and some lows. the highs are as i stated above.

the low is that I CAN'T HEAR. seriously i can't hear anything in my left ear. Is my eardrum broken or something? I dont know. It's really annoying how I can't hear what people are saying. I keep on saying HUH HUH but people get annoyed repeating the things they say.

and my ear is starting to hurt.

I want my hearing backkkkkkkkk :(

tambah lagi tambah lagi

kan duduk dekat rembau 2 tahun. that's kind of a long time. so i had a MASSIVE change from being a budak USJ to a budak Rembau. dulu aku mana ada cakap 'aku kau'. sebab orang lain mesti ejek cara aku cakap ni. so the safer idea is to say 'i and u' instead. so duduk dekat usj ni semua orang aku communicate aku cakap 'i u'. hey u tgh buat apa? i takde buat pape, u? mcm gitu la. its normal to me. pastu aku cakap dulu cam sopan sikit la. cam girlgirl gedik2 sikit. cara aku cakap and slang tu aku tekan kan lagi. nampak lah kononnya mcm woaa budak bandar. perangai pun cam jagajaga sikit. covercover lah katakan. 'eh u ni. apa la u' HAHA. so pindah semesra kan, i had a drastic change. cakap kasar sikit, pandai sakat orang, pandai kenakan orang. kot la. budakbudak ni lah yang ajar. aku cakap sekarang pun aku kau dgn sapasapa je. cakap dah tak payah cover sebab kita semua kan friends. aku pun dah terbiasa cakap aku kau tak kira la dgn permpuan atau lelaki.

then sekolah habis, balik USJ. kena kembali jadi budak USJ. kena covercover balik, cakap 'i u' and gelak kena cam gedik sikit. aku tak tahu kenapa aku dah tak biasa da cakap 'i u'. mcm eee pelik nya. kenapa aku ni? it soounds so weird now to be saying 'i u' in a malay sentence. rasa macam apahal gedik sangat aku ni. pelik lah. i dont know how i did it in the past. but now it sounds so weird. maybe as malia said, "kalau cakap aku kau macam lagi rapat" its kind of true.

so help. i'm trying to say i u again. but its so not me anymore. HAHH, i dont know. i've got to get use to it.

ok bye nak pergi kerja

Say Cheese

Ok aku tengah dalam process nak pakai braces. nanti jadi geng ilman, razin, izzuddin. HAHA. geng gigi besi. tak tau lah pulak ha processnya lambat. jangan main aku bgtau orang aku akan pakainya esok hari (which is today). excited je aku. masa tido, setiap jam aku bangun ha. tak sabar punya pasal. today aku pergi lah appointment ni. rupa-rupanya hari ni aku belum pakai lagi. alaa. disappointed plak aku. then dia cakap aku kena cabut 3 batang gigi! ADUHH. bunyi nya cam sakit gilaaaaa. dia cucuk sini cucuk sana. nasib baik aku tak takut jarum. kalau tak satu hal lagi. haha. tibatiba bibir mulut aku rasa kebas. pelik nya rasa ni. HAHA. then dia cabut gigi atas aku ni. "eh dah ke?" tak rasa satu haprak pun. OH COOOL. tapi gusi aku bleeeeding lah. alamak teringat waktu aku kena pukul dengan kayu hockey to. HAHA. ni semua gara-gara HOCKEY. tak pe lah. it was an experience. so sekarang ni ada tissue kat mulut nak hentikan bleeding. tadi tak rasa sakit. sekarang macam dah mula rasa pedih sikit. ain tabah, ain strong. i can handle this.

minggu depan cabut lagi 2 gigi. YAYAYYYYY senonot nyaaa. satu lagi gigi atas, and satu kat bawah. macam painful je bunyi nya.

2 minggu lagi baru pasang besi besi kat gigi. HAHA. Can't wait. The pain, the wait, the blood. It's probably worth it. HOPEFULLY. nanti aku kahwin, boleh aku senyum nampak gigi. tak payah aku nak malu lagi dah. hahaha. best nyerrrr.

nanti aku jadi macam gini. HOHOHO