Tuesday, June 26, 2012

It's the only thing that I had

A girl just wants attention. Not in a bad way I mean. Generally, people giving  you their attention just makes you feel wanted and needed. It's probably one of the best feelings. After love. 



 


*living in the shadow, of some one else's dream, trying to find a hand to hold but everything every touch felt cold to me*



Saturday, June 16, 2012

here comes JUNE

NAMASTE !

Its been like seriously damn while since I've written anything! the last time i wrote is about me working at MPH. and i quit like a month ago already. weheee.  to up to date thingsss. pshhtt it's not like anybody's gonna read this. okay, for the future me ;)

GUTEN TAG JUNE !

yaa, today is the morning of 1st June 2012 :) in a blink of an eye , we're half way through the year. so fastttt like thattt.  I should be taking a shower, but instead i decide to write this blog since I read othman's blog and i feel so touched. i also want to write. anyways, im needing to write something or spill out my guts to someone or something because so many things have been going on since the last post.

On may 23, 2012 I officially became a university student in University Kebangsaan Malaysia. The course I am taking is Asasi permata pintar negara. wahhh. Initially there were 52 people who registered, but since scholarships have announced the results, only 37 people are left. including me.

I have a one great roommate who is just as silly and goofy and blurry like me. HAHA.

soooooo, as now i continue this post on 17th June 2012. yeah i dont really have time to right blogs as now i'm enrolling Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia.

I remember last year Borhan and Izzuddin compete in the Olympiad, only now how i know how they feel. it was damn hard. i just took the test this morning it was like asdfkj. 3 hours of my life i didn't know what i was writing. bahhhh. but whatever its over

Im in SET 2 of asasi pintar. which only consists of 14 students. 7 girls and 7 boys. but one has gone already, one is about to (wouldn't reject JPA's scholarship la kan) , another is considering MARA. so that leaves with pfft 11 students ?! Just as our bonds are getting closer and tighter like covalent bond, we received bad news as were informed that set 2 will broken in to two. half will enter set 1 , the others will enter set 3. this isn't confirmed just yet. so who knowwsss. we'll wait for monday to see. weeee.

So i made a few friends ( I can't say a whole lot because there isn't that many people) and just minggling here and there. getting know people. luckily i did find some cracked ones haha. but the asasi pintar students are all coooooll :D

THEY ARE SUPER SMART! I don't feel like i belong here because when the lecturer explains something everybody else seems like they understand already, and im like OMFG please repeat peat peat. the blurriesttt slowest person in class. oohh ohh me me! the laziest and sleepiest. AIN lah namanya. bhaha. seriously, the students are so smart macam othman and borhan tau. i'm like in a class full of othmans and borhans. sometimes i feel like quitting because i can't catch up. but thats not the promise i made to myself and my family.

Despite not able to understand in class, i will study hard afterwards to make myself understand. i'm gonna study hard work hard strive persevere. weeee. i wanna be great medical student. im not letting twitter and facebook interfere with my studies. i will not let the media distract me. im strong. i can do this. i can do this. this is it this is the moment. bhaha. so far this "4.0 GPA" thing is not looking good for me. because i haven't being so great in pop quizzes, post tests, and tutorials. :( but its okay. i'll start slow and steady. i may be quite slow and blur in the beginning, hopefully i can progress and achive that 4.0. oh yeahhh. i'll do it :)

unfortunately i will not be accepted to MARA. tak apa la. tak ada rezeki kan. UKM is fine with me. who knows ukm is much better for me. who knows kan. hanya Dia yang merancang. RancanganNya mesti terbaik untuk kita kan.

I'm all set, i want to be a doctor. oh yeah. Dr.Norain :) aww i'm gonna cry because i feel so grown up, I can't believe it :')

so i guess that's all i have to say.

au revoir

for now

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