The Guy in the Blue Baju Melayu

He came into my dream last night. I was happy to see him. He just stood there. He smiled. He looked around and watched everybody get ready. I suppose it was Raya?

He didn't say a word.

He wore a blue baju melayu completed with buttons and songkok. It looked like it was made out of songket. He was very fashionable and very clean and very handsome. I smiled looking at him because I haven't seen him in a long time

I took out a camera wanting to take a picture of him. to catch this moment. to see be able to always his happy face.

Amirul tried to stop me from taking any pictures. He said "you're not gonna be able to see him in the picture
Before I could do anything. I just snapped one picture.

I looked at the picture in the camera.

of course

He was missing. and when I looked up. He disappeared.


I haven't seen him in my dreams in a while now. 5 months since he breathed the Earth's air.
 I really miss him. I really do.
I was so happy I got to see him last night. He looked very handsome as he usually does. Even though it was just a dream. It's better than nothing.

Wait for us in Jannah. insyaAllah. we'll meet again in the life hereafter.

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Sanah Helwah Ayahanda

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH !

2 Januari 2014 merupakan hari lahir yang ke erm erm erm 56 buat ayahanda tercinta 

Alhamdulillah. Allah masih beri peluang kepada ayah untuk terus hidup di atas muka bumiNya. Alhamdulillah. Allah masih beri peluang kepada kita semua untuk bertaubat dan kembali kepada jalan yang benar

Segala isi duka yang terjadi tahun lepas, will still be in 2013. 2013 tahun yang sukar bagi kami sekeluarga, namun ada hikmah sebaliknya. dan aku percaya pada ujian yang Allah beri. 

Alhamdulillah. tak terkata. 

aku hampir menitiskan air mata apabila ayah aku membacakan doa sempena hari kelahirannya. doa yang Rasulullah penah ucap. Memang tahun 2013 tahun yang sukar. tapi Allah beri pengajarang kepada kita. untuk kita ingat kepadaNya. bertaubat kepadaNya. dan taat kepadaNya. dan ya, itulah yang terjadi kepada keluargaku. tersebak aku memikirkan. Segala puji bagi Allah.

Semoga aku dan keluarga istiqamah dalam penghijrahan ini. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat kepada keluargaku. Semoga Allah tempatkan aku dan keluarga dalam Jannah bersama orang yang beriman. Semoga aku dan keluarga dapat pijak tanah bumi anbiya. 

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